Denial

I've moved onto denial
Because I can't let myself believe,
The stories of what you did
Or the way that you left me.

You always told me
That you were scared to fall in love,
You gave me fair warning
on what your heart consisted of.

Never did you want to marry
And sometimes you liked to be alone,
Pushing people away for a while
in times that you had to bemoan.

I didn't mind all those things
Infact, to me, they were not faults,
It gave me the chance to heal you
When your heart cried out for help

By taking care of you
I took care of myself,
I saw how much you needed me,
As my reliance grew itself.

But night after night
I had visions of tomorrow,
THe day you would stop loving me
filled me with much sorrow.

Wishing that my visions
Had not been created
I hoped for that day
to forever be delayed.

But sooner than I thought
You had eyes for another girl,
Sooner than I could handle
You destroyed my whole world

NOw I walk alone in moonlight
Constantly holding my breath
I see you both, my heart stops
But I will not be saved by death.

You aren't worth those kinds of thoughts,
But my depression will not fade away,
So I guess I'll stay happy in my denial
Until my dying day.