Why do I feel this way

There are somethings I need to get off my chest
my hearts is now split in two feeling sit inside me burning in side me
so I ask what I should do

I wake up in the middle of the night asking god why do I have to feel this way
I hurt so much so much is gathering up inside
I dont want to see you hurt or cry
I luv u so much but there is another pulling on my hearts

I just have to figure out what i need it killing me
I want to listen to my heart but it is just as lost as I
god show me the path so I will not feel this pain anymore
I know look to you for help and I ask you not to leave me in the dark

Your the only one I can trust in right now
plz forgive all the past things I have done
things are so hard for me at the moment
so I just want to ask why dose luv have to hurt like this