Up Above

Im writing this all with sad regret,
Its just one of those things Ill never forget,
My heart was racing though no longer would it beat,
And from that moment on-my world fell incomplete.
I heard of your death-heard how you died,
But i just couldnt bring myself to believe that it was suicide,
Because I thought you were happy during your final days,
Though now I guess deep down you were never okay.
And I wish you told me-I wish I knew,
I wish i could have helped you find a way to pull through,
I wish I could have told you-how much you mean to me,
How if you were gone Id feel completely lost&empty.
I wish I could let you know that i would understand,
But if I knew this would happen Id grab you with both hands.
And Id tell you that suicide is never the way,
That its selfish & takes your love ones happiness away.
But its too late-I took a chance to wait,
And its sad because I know-suicide was never your fate.
I had my chance then-you passed bye,
I dont understand && I keep asking why.
But I know youd never want to hurt the ones you love,
I know youre regretting your desision from up above,
Just know that we love you and want you back home,
And since youve departed so many people feel alone.
Though we know youre not suffering&& we hope youre happy,
So remember gods watching your loved ones and fly away free.

^^^really really sucks. but my best friend comiited suicide not too long ago..like last week
RIP Joshua L. H
also-i think the last word from the first two lines..i think ive heard them before so props to their owner.=)