So so sorry

Please mum, please come back.
I miss you so much please believe that.
I cant bare to live life without you,
Im so scared when I was in trouble and needed help, I didn't know what to do but you always new.
What do I do now, when you took your life,and left me and G, I called you a selfish cow.
I was upset.
But it is me who is selfish, I didn't see you were depressed, I just kept going on about how I was stressed.
I am so so sorry mum I should have guessed, having a mum like you I realise I was truely blessed.
Sorry mum.