A Double Feature

Caught your attention,
didn't know that i had,
you never seem to see me,
and that makes me mad,
but i know why you don't notice,
doesn't check in at the booth.

Blind to the truth,
down to the root,
you know I'm not me,
how could i be?
this double feature,
you never see me,
criss-crossed like plaid,
you never see me,
and that makes me mad.

You never get to see me,
outside this horrid shell,
you never see the emotions,
outside of the ghastly spell,
condemned to remain this way,
in front the gates of heaven-
i shall forever wait.

You see this macho figure,
and you smile with guilty pleasure,
but underneath this thick old core,
lies something much much more,
emotional wreck,
words come pouring,
my soul now soaring,
i could tell you I'm mean and tough,
but underneath,
my coating isn't rough.

Gentle inside,
hardened out,
never get to see me,
outside of the shell,
the shell that condemns me-
to forever burn in this hell.

Why you never notice,
i cannot been to explain,
but however this poem is in vain,
cause you may read this in 2 minutes time,
you'll never get to notice,
the meaning of my rhyme.

As you pass me by,
more and more,
the hate inside,
grows stronger in form..
as you ignore my constant plee,
you never ever get to see,
my double feature,
my real me,
yet it will NEVER let me be.

Can't let it go,
but i can never seem to show,
this ultimate source of love,
that pours from deep within this horrid soul.

My soul condemns me,
and constricts my breath,
it wont let me rest,
wont let me sleep,
i forever keep,
the secrets my own,
as i sit on my throne,
in this double feature movie.