Losing

Try so hard to be happy
Striving for a feeling
To fix the void that is my soul
So broken and beyond healing

Watch him pick up his glass
So early in the day
Spending each day drowning in a bottle
Never wanting to live another way

I watch her struggle
For what i do not know
But I think she's losing
With no where left to go

Words cannot express the pain
I see in her eyes
She lost her friend she loved
She lost to suicide

The battle I tried to fight
I fear i have lost
Trying to stop my self from cutting
To tell myself it's not worth what it costs

The look in his eyes
Screams he doesn't understand me
He begs me to stop
And i just want to flee

Because i know I'm losing
And that I will never win
The longer I stay
The more I hurt him