I'm still madly in love with you anyways

So basically...
I'm not here in your life to control you...
demand of you..
or command you...
it hurts that you think of me that way....
and I'm sorry that i care enough to be honest with you about how i feel...
i don't command you to be perfect...
i just don't know what you think of me anymore....
i hate feeling like I'm left out in the dark....
all i ever did was speak out the things that where missing...
that are requirements for a pure relationship...
for really,
a fare relationship..
i know life is not fair ....
but when you love someone you should want that person to be treated equal....
I'm sorry that you run when i confront our relationship with what it is lacking...
I'm not being mean at all...
i just wish you wouldn't go hide in your shell...
i wish you would see that i just want to be closer to you...
i just want us to connect in our souls.. in our minds...
since we cant connect physically now..
it's what is needed since this is a long distance relationship.
you make me want to take back everything i say about anything confronting....
it's almost as though you wish that we could ignore the problems...
and act like they don't exist...
like you don't want to go anywhere...
or grow at all...
and I'm not saying you need to grow..
that will come in time...
it's just like it feels like you don't want to do anything at all for me...

and my hurt doesn't matter...
my longing for you is a joke to you...
my desire to get closer to you makes you fearful.....
well God...
it's nice to know that you're scared of the one you love..*sarcasm*.
whatever...
i give up with this...
you'll love me in your own time and it will be to late...
so you can have control...
and do whatever you want to ....
and you can accuse me of demanding and commanding...
when all it really is darling is asking...
and requesting...
I'm sorry that i want to love all of you...
I'm sorry that i need to know that you love all of me...
I'm sorry that i don't feel like you love me at all...
and I'm sorry that you wanted something you weren't willing to try for.
what a heartbreak...
i hope you get a clue someday.
but I'm still madly in love with you anyways...