Warned

A hole that can't be filled
even though you tried
I am self destructive
and you hopped on for a ride..

I gave you my attention
I pretended to love
I filled the emptiness in your heart
I made you happy
then i tore you apart..

I warned you that I was no good
I told you I couldn't love..
But still you stood by my side
You told me there you would stand
until the end of time..

I told you it would never happen
but you refused to believe
of all the things you saw
you didn't see the fake in me.

You said I had my bad points
but you loved them all the same
I told you over and over
but in the end, I feel the shame..

I told you I can't love you
but it isn't really you..
You are the perfect one
for anyone but me..

In truth I despise you
but I can't tell you that
I despise you for who you want me to be
something I wished for but will always lack..

I hate the words I love you
every time they're said..
Every time i hear them
I wish to be dead..

The despairing thoughts
of my insane mind
I hate you, I hate you
but why do you still love me
after all that I've done?