Still

Look.....
it's me still trying...
despite all the contradictions and causes against me...
I'm still stubborn....
i wont let go...
i cant...
it's impossible...
i don't think there will ever be another dream to follow...
another time where I'll feel like i want to fight to keep love alive.
I'm still holding on no matter how hopeless it seems....
I'm still holding on despite all the warning signs pointing to the death of my soul...
I'm still trying to try...
setting myself up for failure again...
i don't care though...
I'll keep hurting myself going back to believing..
even though nothing feels like it will ever change...
nothing feels as though it will ever turn around...
it feels like everything in my life will stay the same....
and i will always be trying to push through the walls...
and when i get to the other end it starts back up again...
but despite all this...
in my mind..
I'm still crazy enough to believe that this love is worth the fight...
so here's another dream for you to say nothing about....