I'm Sorry

You are not forgotten
You are constantly on our minds
Tears run down my lonely face
When I think of all those happy times

The times we use to hang out together
And bake all throughout the day
If I could see you and talk to you now
I would have so much to say

I would tell you that I am sorry
For acting like I always did
The times I lied to you
For all those times I stayed home and hid

I'm sorry when I would talk back to you
And ignored what you asked me to do
I'm sorry about when I would yell
And the stressful times I put us all through

I'm sorry for all those times
I only thought about my wants and needs
When I only thought about myself
For that, my heart constantly bleeds

I hate myself for how I use to act
When you asked me to do the simplest task
When I would scream and throw a fit
When you just kindly would ask

I love you Grandma
And wish I could fix it all
All the times I acted so ignorant and selfish
When I put up the "blocking" wall

But please forgive me for all that
For I know none of it was right
I blame myself for everything
And every little fight

*This poem came from the bottom of my heart*