Im Ready To Give Up....

I'm tried of this life
I'm ready to get out
i just wish i could wake up someone else
and not have to deal with everything
i don't want to live here

they say it isn't easy growing up
but they never said it was this hard

everynite before bed
i think of him or her
or what happened that day
and i end up falling asleep
with tears streaming down my face
waking up with wanting to die and that being the first thing i think of
i don't want that

i just want to scream at people
just tell them whats hurting me
but when i open my mouth
nothing comes out

everything was going great
then a bomb was dropped on my lap
and I'm going back to my old self
and i don't even like that me

I'm sorry
but i cant do this anymore
I'm done with being scared
and I'm done with not knowing whether want i want to
live or die
I'm ready to leave
I'm ready to give up
but i just cant
not here
not now.....