Illusion of Strength

Outside lies the armour
an illusion of my strength
For inside I cringe

I marvel at the peaceful sunset
and think the peace can be mine
What folly!

Your voice reopened the floodgates
of my pain
and I drown in my foolish illusions
What brutal truth!

I have not been loved
I've been possessed and conquered
and betrayed!

I will the gushing river of hurt
that flows from my heart
away

Making promises to myself
that tomorrow will be better

But the sun is gone now
The pink and gold has faded to gray
and fleecy white clouds
are stretched into gaunt black lines

I'm torn apart
by too greedy fingers
Nothing is left

Let me float now
and subdue the ever-rising waters
for peace might be there

Let me escape to it
and bask for a moment
in sun-kissed gold