I was a waste of time,
You never cared,
You never saw me crying.
I was always there for you,
Tried my hardest.
Like I promised to do.
I was such a joke,
You always laughed at me,
You left me here standing alone,
Without any hope.
I found love in your eyes,
But they were actually black as stone.
Because they were covered up with all your lies.
I never imagined it would end this way,
Youve left me deserted and alone,
And without any words to say.
I relied on forever,
I wanted to go back,
But this whole thing is but a blur.
I cant believe you actually cared.
You lied and accused,
You screamed at me as everyone stared.
I don't know what went wrong.
All these years Ive pretended.
With your lies, I just played along.
Every time you made my world fall apart,
Every time you stabbed me in the back,
All the times you made me cry,
Every time you f______ around with my heart,
All the times I wanted to die.
Every time you said I love you
And every time I said I love you too.
What did we mean?
Or when we said Always.
And when we planned on loving each other forever.
Why did we put ourselves through this?
Why is it you,
Why is it you that I miss?
Even through all the bad memories,
All the times we got angry,
All the times you said you hated me,
And every time I said it back.
I ask myself, How could this be?
We were the best of friends,
Everything was great.
You were the one I called on,
And I was the one you came to,
But something changed,
I saw the real you.
I read all the horrible thoughts in your mind,
You hated me,
You didnt want me,
And because of all the $**t you put me through,
I cant help it,
I just have to hate you too.
Because all the lies you said,
All the excuses you used,
The things you cant take back,
You cant make things better for either of us,
Because there are things you just cant undo.
