Why do i miss you

When I look at you and her,
I see you and me.
Im left holding back tears,
Remembering how we used to be.
I see you ever day,
And every time I see you,
I freeze; I go back.
I don\t know how to say all m feeling,
Some times is like a nightmare,
But you are awake.
Other times is like nothing has changed.
You smile at me when shes not around,
Laugh at me when she is.
I fear tomorrow,
They are leaving the state,
Leaving you friendless.
I don\t know if I want you back,
Im afraid youâ??ll come back to me.
But I'm also afraid you wont.
I dont know what I want,
I dont know who I am anymore.
Without you I am incomplete,
With you I am miserable.
How can all my feelings fit on here?
Happy,
Sad, and fear.
Confusion,
Disappointment,
Agony,
Anxious,
And concerned about you.
What is wrong with me?
Why cant I be normal?
Why do I miss you,
When I promised not too?
Why do I still love you?
Why would I still take a bullet for you?
Why cant these feelings die away?
Why do I feel so empty with out you?
Why do I still anticipate seeing you in the hallway?
Why canâ??t you see all my questions I have?
Is this the way you wanted us to be?
Why wont you just say, I miss you too.
Why did always end?
Why cant you see all you're doing to me?