A father's love

I get the precious vignettes
the sights of you on your path
as each day you grow stronger
Yet, I think of those days
that before coffee
a soft frail voice called
"Daddy"

The day you were born
the small little figure
nestled in my hands
so small and so fragile

I remember the day you spoke
your first word
took your first step
and all the while you exploring life.
Though, at night we are far apart
except for the precious visits we get

I am with you son
as the wolf spirit cries its song
to the full moon
over the mountains

and the stars I am there always
wanting nothing more
than for you to know
that I, your father,
love you and that you,

my wonderful son,
are truly the most special gift
I have ever gotten from God

Though now, we see so little
of each other
I can only hope that
you will always remember
in your heart of hearts lullabies,
the soft times we had

The times when ever you called
I was but steps away
the torment I feel now is not knowing
of the two precious calls I get a week
and the 24 hours every other weekend

but, is the not seeing
my precious child, his smile
or hearing his voice everyday.

Divorce is so cruel sometimes
but son know in your heart
as vainly I try to express the words
that I have never or will never
Divorce you.. but always, even apart,
be within reach always there

as you look to the heavens
know that dad is here
with you in heart
and the loneliness of a tear
for in you is my strength
my hope and my dreams
of better a mark left behind
on my passing

But know that no matter
what new game the players play
In Roanoke, with the zest they have,
there is no love that can be blunted

or refrained than a father's love
of you, so dear Yet, we are apart
but together, for you are in my heart
my soul and being and in my dreams

I am with you still together
and still seeing the pastels of the morn
the firsts sights you see
all these things of two united
by love and of heart so listen, son

these words hold true
that no others can destroy
the love I have for you.
With you always in heart and spirit

Love Daddy.....

a poem writing for ralph. that tell his true experiance life "story".