Today's the day

Today is the day I've decided
To turn my world around
I'll tell you why now
I'll write it all down
You might not get it
Be unable to understand
But I'll try my best
To help you comprehend.

I felt so trapped
Lost and confused
Tried so hard
But a life was refused.
Made too many mistakes
And caused too much pain
Live in constant fear
Trapped within my brain.

Tried many times to turn it around
But at this I always fail
Get so frustrated with myself
And life turns into just another cutters tail.
Ruin everything I try to do
For myself and those around
Be best to end this useless existence
To just leave without a sound.

I'm sorry for
The pain I've forged
I'm sorry I chose
This deadly course
It is no-ones fault
There is no other way
I hope that you understand
I cannot stay another day

Wish that things could be different
That I could turn back time
So that I had not caused all these problems
So that all of you would be just fine.
I have stayed here
For as long as I could
Over come things
Which I never thought I would.

But now it is all over
I wish there was another way
But I hope you can see
That I have to leave today.