Calling But Still Falling

Someone help me, Lord I'm falling
Hear this deepened plea I'm calling
He's gone, I know, I understand
With no one left, I need your hand

Listen, draining is my voice now
Steady, hoping, I don't know how
Answer me and say you care
I was once praying you'd be there

Broken, hurt, so lost and deceased
It doesn't help, I'd never believe
This can't be me, alone once again
Each promise was a lie instead

This darkened hole, each night it brightens
With words of hatred, evil frightens
Each bit of my soul cries in tears
So swallowed up by pains and fears

Why is it that I only suffer
Just when I think things can't get tougher
It seems like I'm existing; the only one
So paralyzed in darkness, I can't run

There are those who tell me to hold tight
That things in time would be alright
But I just can't seem to listen well
In lying they each seem to excel

With hollow tears my soul, it shatters
And broken bits begin to scatter
But I just can't find the strength to bend
To lift the pieces up to mend

I believe I'm going down; I fear
Satin's hell is heaven compared to here
With every last bit of strength I'm calling
Don't catch me now; for I've been falling