Torn

Deep inside my heart I hide my pain and sorrow
I'm scared to think about him, I'm scared to think about tomorrow
I block the memories out, there's not much else I can do
The pain hasn't just been emotional its been physical too
Old Memories are flooding my mind
Ripping my heart, something is missing something I can not find
I've decided to tell my memories of him goodbye
Even as I sit here and cry
My heart is being torn to little shreds
The pain is coming back not much longer till it spreads