New years eve

This was the night that
my heart had been broken
never to be fixed
the new years eve i was woken

by the screaming and banging
and the hurtful words that were said
me trying to cry myself to sleep
listening to my dad getting knocked in the head

i hear my sister crying
shes screaming in fright
i look at her tears streaming down
on this "celebrated" night

watch mum and her boyfriend
then dads gone in the car
taking my sister and brother
half of my family's so far

just me and my younger sister
and the home wrecking guy
i run to my room
and badly want to just die

no one to talk to
or cry on their shoulder
i wanted to die then
and didn't wanna grow any older

wanted to drown in my tears
or cut up my wrist
a gun shot in the head
i never want to be missed

i didn't see it coming
and i never made it through the fall
my heart is still broken
and my wrists have it all...