Tired of everything

I don't know why I'm sad
but i always seem to cry
maybe cause i feel alone
i say I'm happy but i lie

i wanna just sit in my room
&& cry in my bed all day
i hate going to school
and never knowing what to say

id be in a lot less pain
but iv made too many mistakes
iv handed over my worthless heart
and have been watching as it breaks

i need him to cry to
and i need someone to hold
instead of being awake all night
crying and waiting in the cold

as i wait for a life to live for
ill lie here tears running down
& when your back with me
ill no longer have to frown

i cant be f u k ed doing anything
i really don't wanna wait anymore
but before you left i was happy
i never left this sore

iv never been so sad
and never felt so alone
probably cause the of the fact
when you were here i was never on my own