I Remember You

I can remember the day I first found out you were gone
That was the worse phone call of my life

I remember being numb all over and not saying a word
I remember going home and silently crying
I remember never wanting to wakeup and just stay asleep and in bed forever

I remember hating you for leaving
I remember hating god for making you leave
I remember hating myself for not saving you

I remember not wanting to live after that
I remember crying until I had not tears to cry
I remember the funeral
I remember thinking that this cant be real

I remember not being myself
I remember feeling like Id never be happy again
I remember feeling guilty
I remember regretting a lot of things

I remember your big, Hollywood smile
I remember your strong voice giving me courage
I remember the way you would light up a room
I remember how everyone loved you and how they still do
I remember hearing you come down the hall, and smiling
I remember your big, soft hugs
I remember everything about you