Insanity

What is this feeling
i dont like it
i wish it away
far away from from me and all i care about

i feel hatred, anger
all the works of evil
but why is it because of her
no but it is close i think it is him

shouldn\'t it be both that is only fair
no i still love her there must be a reason
she wouldnt do this for no reason
this mutiny, this evil deed

i hate him for touching her
he had no right to
the ring on her finger is from me
he must have raped her

but then why would she have hid behind him
why did she hide from me
wouldnt she have run to me for safety
wouldnt she have weeped in my arms in thanks

but what happened after that
i cant remember the reason for this red on me
and where is my wife
and why does that sound like filth in my mouth

why is there siriens coming toward me
i feel like i should go into the bedroom
but why should i, isnt this just as good as place as any
i guess my gut has been right in many other cases

as i enter into the bedroom my bare feet step into something wet
i reach for the light but then i am overcome by grief
i start to cry for a reason i dont know
when i am stable once more i flick the light on

i cry out in surprise
for the sight i see is to horrible to grasp
i fall to my feet once again
i only stop when i feal something cold against the back of my neck

i hear someone say to put my hands on top of my hand
i do so and realise this is my work
these two corpses are theirs
the rapist which i am starting to think he is not

and my wife both as life less as a rock
then i notice my small peices of work
like the man missing his eyes and his hands
he shouldnt have touched her

as i am led out of the room i laugh
my laugh is not out of hystia
but out of happiness
my anger has dissipated and was replaced with joy

the anger i felt only hours ago
that burned as bright as the sun
the anger that caused me to kill
that caused me to snap as i hear the men in white suits say

but i am perfectly sane i understand everything
i might even say i understand better now then ever
for before i was blinded by love
a one way love but love none the less

i have spent many years in this white room
with padded walls and a chain that is connected to me
over the years i have done nothing but think
and now i have deicded what i will do when i am out

i will stop all this raping
i will save all these lovers from the bound to be fate
i will kill everyone so then no one will feel the anger
then after i will wait for more to sprout from hell

and when i am the only one left i will finally retire
to my only home left
i will return here to this room
here i will rest for eternity