Falling Again

Seeing all the smiles
in school and in town
watching everyone else be happy
but only seeing myself fall down

I try to get back up
but I get pushed down even more
wondering why I can't keep it together
and sick and tired of being tore

it takes so much energy
for me to even smile at all
and at the end of the day anyways
all I do again is fall

but every time it gets worse
I fall even harder than the time before
and it's so hard to keep getting back up
I can't really give much more

I have way to many scars
on the inside and out
but still no one can see through
and they can't hear my silent shout

but I don't want or expect them to
because they wouldn't understand
and soon when I fall again
there will be no place I can land

I'll be lost and alone
with only one place to go
and not understand
how I ever sank this low

to the point where I feel
there's no more I can do
and maybe have to leave
by ending my life too