Nothing Left

I lay in my bed wide awake
tears falling down my face
having too many thoughts in my mind
they come and go without a trace

having way to much pain
not having anymore tears to cry
taking hold of the knife
wishing I would just die

I take the knife and slit my wrist
as I watch the blood run down my arm
it hurts but not as much as my pain
my hand is shaking from the false alarm

I'm trying to hold on to what I have left
but most of what I have is gone
the good things I wish I could hold on to
I have already lost for so long

my life seems to be pointless
and I gave up long ago
the person that I used to be
anymore I don't even know

I'm no good for myself or others
and all I do is bring pain
every bad thing that goes wrong
I always take the blame

the nights get so bad
with the tears and my wrist getting slain
the days are just pretending all the time
with a smile holding back all the pain

I wish there was an easy way
I could leave and get out of here
and if I decided to end it all
that is something I really fear

but I hurt so bad
and I can't take much more
my life is falling apart
and my heart is constantly tore

it's not worth it to me
to stay here anymore at all
and feel so much pain and hurt
and keep watching myself fall

I'm way to far gone
to get myself back up again
and I don't like myself enough
to believe that I actually can

I'm sorry about everything
but I don't know how much longer I can stay
it's just all to much for me to handle
and I'll probably have to get away