Final Goodbye

I wake up
put on my face
go to work
walk around like a mirage
never noticed, never seen, or heard
wait for the clock to move
clock strikes 6
head home clean up the mess of my parents and siblings
listen to the endless screaming
you are pathetic you will never be good enough F* you go to He11
i go to bed
and cry and cry and cry
trying endlessly to go to sleep

the one thing i look forward to seeing
you, my love, do you even care?
i see you for an hour
but you're never really there
always on the phone with some other girl
you hang up and come to me
say i Love you
and then you force me down
i scream aloud in pain
that endless pain
but still you don't stop
then you leave
with one last, fake and fatal
i love you
i sit alone and cry
and wonder why
a ghost shouldn't cry
i wonder why
i take this
no one cares about me
so ill take my leave
this is my goodbye
goodbye to my family
you'll only notice I'm gone when you ring and i dont come
goodbye my love
i want you to know that you caused this
you caused this to be
my final goodbye
goodbye