No Matter What

No matter what I do
It always comes back

The thoughts just slip back into my mind
as if they had never left

the happy feelings just seem to disappear
and I am again surrounded by a darkness

this is the reality I try to ignore,
the reality I wish was not true.

I tell myself it will pass,
that things will get better
and for a while they do

But no matter what I do
it always comes back

And I am left with pain and darkness
Feelings of anger and hate form

I can not control it,
it sweeps over me and before I know it I am gone

One of these days I am afraid I will not be coming back
But for now the darkness goes away

But no matter what I do
it always comes back