I'm Moving On

Too long I've been hating
Hating the people who hurt me
But it's just a waste of my energy
This I now see.

Too long I've been wishing
Something horrible to happen to those who broke me
But now I'm moving on
And I hope this will set me free.

Abused and raped by a 'friend'
abandoned by my dad
Spending so many days
Wishing I was happy, wishing I was glad.

Judged by my mother
Because my only way out was to cut
Telling me I was crazy
Shaking her head-doing nothing but tut.

Refusing to forgive
Refusing to believe
Refusing to forget
Now this pain I will relieve.

I thought something was wrong with me
Never thought they were to blame
Getting caught up
In their stupid head games.

But now I finally see
There is nothing wrong with me
I figured out the reasons
That I didn't feel free.

But I'm moving away
Away from this pain
If I stay trapped in this game
I have nothing to gain.

I'm not messed up
I've just done messed up things
Trying to deal with the hurt
Certain people did bring.

I'm not stupid
I do have a lot to give
And I have every right
To continue to live.

I'm not crazy
I just acted that way
It was my only way
I could get through each day.

I'm not unlovable
I'm not even cruel
I'm not just another
Stupid hopeless fool.

To every person who has been hurt like I have
To every person who always feels sad:
Don't blame yourself
Don't feel that you are bad.

Don't give up
Don't let those b a s t a r d s win
For that would truly be
The biggest ever sin.

Even if you feel you can't carry on
Even if you feel you have no more strength to give
Don't give up
Just continue to live.

Don't spend each day
Wishing those b a s t a r d s were dead
Don't spend every moment
Living inside your head.

refuse to give in
Continue to be strong
I know you can do this
And you know my words aren't wrong.

Don't spend your life
Wishing away theirs
If you look deep inside yourself
You'll find some people really do care.

Don't try and get revenge
Don't sink to their level
Just continue being yourself
Recognize them as the Devil.

Don't let them win this
Don't ever give in
One day they'll get their come-uppance
And then you'll know you really can win.

**I Wasn't sure if this should go in the sad category but put it here because of the final message**