I never Thought

I always thought I knew what I wanted & that you weren't what I looked for,
But when you got fed up it's something deep inside of me that tore.
I always thought you'd be there standing beside me to catch my tears,
But apparently things change and so have you over the past years.
I always thought of you as a friend though you thought of me as much more.
soon even that little friendship between us grew sour.
I guess you grew out of it or maybe it was just a phase.
But now that its gone I long for each bit of it,
I thought something I should'nt have thought,
& now what I want is obviously lost.
I thought you said you're heart made a gage.
You made a vow to love me forever at every stage.
I thought so, but now I realize I should'nt believe in my thoughts,
but rather go ahead and believe in my heart.
I thought my heart was thinking the same but oh my what a dangerous game.
What a dangerous game we played with each other,
till you dumped me for her.
Though I never told you I've thought it through.
I always liked you maybe even loved you,
but that doesn't matter anymore because your heart to me has closed its door.
Now I sit alone in the darkness waiting for someone to sweep me of my feet.
Like in the movies where your Prince Charming turns out oh so sweet.
But I can't let myself fall for I am afraid...
I am afraid that to him I will do the same I did to you...
and then as revenge he will do the same again
And again the breath taking game of our hearts,
will burn us like the wood in the hearths.
Oh baby forgive me if you ever may,
because you were the first to put me in such sweet dismay.
And I thought this feeling would stay forever but like it's said life is like a lever there are ups and downs, smiles and frowns.
I got over you I made it through,
That I could do I never thought.