At first

So now to add to the story,
you have known all along,
i was unaware of this,
the feelings still don't seem wrong.

At first i felt awkward,
like it would change your actions,
but why the hell would it,
people cannot help their attractions.

At first i found it daunting,
like it would never be the same,
the feeling was so taunting,
thats when you shouted my name.....

I looked up to see you,
and there you stood,
that smile on your face,
that made me feel like i thought i never could.

It hasnt changed a thing,
were still the same as before,
i cannot contain it,
how can i not want more.

Yet i know you are a friend,
and with that im happy,
but yet i cannot pretend,
i wouldnt like more from you.

The feelings yes they show,
ive known this for ages,
but i thought you didnt know,
my feelings didnt happen in stages.

It happened when i first saw you,
ive known ever since then,
and now they've got stronger,
i say to myself "dont think about it Jen"

I cant stop it now,
they wont go away,
i just dont know how,
so there they will have to stay.