Blade

Watching it fade,
and not having a choice,
you should just get that blade,
and push it right through,
right into my heart,
so deep and so powerful,
so forceful and lethal,
Making me bleed.
Then leaving me,
just lying there,
for help ill just plead.
I still cannot hate you,
for what you are doing,
but i can be disappointed,
the feelings are brewing,
you know i only feel this,
because i care so much,
and when i feel your pain,
i just know its gunna happen again.
Theres nothing i can do,
now its out of my control,
i cannot make any sense of it,
but i know with the blade,
you've just struck me with,
you take my heart and soul,
your slowly killing me.
Ive lost all control,
theres no way i can be saved,
its too late for it now,
Ive fell into that black hole.
My vow was to care for you,
until my dying day,
but now i guess that time has come,
and its taken a delay.
I'm going to care forever and more,
you know that i do,
and thats why you see,
that no matter how much,
it hurts me now,
you can always count on me.
No matter what you do,
or what you say to me,
you know ill never stop caring,
because we are friends,
that are just meant to be.
I know deep in side,
you'll remove the blade soon,
and then i wont feel the pain,
not any more,
i will be the usual old me again.
©
~*~Jen~*~

[okay so it may not be the best poem ive ever done but it shows my feelings, and plus i thought ide make atleast one of my poems different than the 4 line stanzas i usually do]