I thought I saw you today, (although We are hundreds of miles away)
For the first time in half a decade, and,
Somehow, I was nearly frozen with fear.
My throat constricted against my will
And I could barely catch my breath.
Everything was in slow-motion and
I hardly saw a thing...
My stomach churned-- icy bile fire
Rose in my throat as everything
Turned black.
I thought that I was past
This fear that once ruled my life,
But, maybe, I had myself fooled
Into a false sense of security, in
An effort to free myself by forgetting.
Fear leaves an ugly scar that can
Haunt you for eternity. God help me
To get past this and, at last,
Put my past behind me.
