I Watch

I'm watching over my family
I'm watching over my friends
I'm watching over the one I love
And wishing this wasn't the end.

Things are hazy
Colors black and white
Deep down in my heart
I feel this isn't right.

Memories flash through my mind
I remember lying on the floor
I was struggling to breathe
And I felt like a dirty wh0re.

I don't know what went wrong
I was only on my way home
But then Evil came a calling
And now I'm truly alone.

Evil came in the shape of a man
He used to be a tutor at school
He was one of the adults I trusted
How could I be such a fool?

I walked with him
I thought I was safe
Oh, I should have ran
Ran away in haste.

He took me through a 'short cut'
And before too long we were in a field
I didn't know it then
But my fate was sealed.

He showed me his hideaway
A secret hole in the ground
He took me down inside
Preparing so that my body wasn't found.

Down in that hole is where
He forced himself upon me
Heavy groaning, pleasurable moaning ensued
How I prayed he'd just set me free!

Alas that was never to be
And he chopped my body into parts
I came to the conclusion that
He had a poisonous stone cold heart.

Now my soul always watches
Over the ones I love the most
Sometimes when I'm in the room with them
They unconsciously feel the presence of my ghost.

I don't know why he did that
And I really want someone told
That b a s t a r d raped me and
Chopped me up at just fourteen years old.

** This Is Based On The First Part Of The Book 'The Lovely Bones' By Alice Sebold. **