The way I feel

I feel at times like a failure ,
in no matter what I do.
I feel I fail those I love ,
this I feel is true.

My partner works so hard all day ,
providing for me and our boys.
He loves me way too much ,
and the boys are spoilt for toys.

I know I care hugely about him ,
and deep down there is a little love.
Hes a good man who deserves much more ,
caring hugely is not enough.

The boys I love them dearly ,
I'd give them everything and more.
They make me shout and scream at times ,
but each of them I still adore.

It's me I hate the way i am ,
I look in the mirror at an ugly thing.
Nothiing I do seems right by all ,
unhappiness to all I feel i bring.