The mask

I fell to the ground and shattered
My mind laid on the ground tattered
All was broken except for the mask
It was the me others saw only a mask
It was the only part of my mind
That I could easily find
It was not me but it was something
It filled the emptiness and the nothing
Which was my soul
It had its toll
I now am a mask covered in a shell
The mask is slowly sending me to hell
The emotions once fake are now real
So horrible and strong they now feel
Eating away at the few shreds of reality I hold
My heart thawing from the cold
And then refreezing with another blow
So horrible the pain of fire and ice
The emotions flow by chance of dice
But the outer shell hides the tempest
thats inside so well few bother to test
For the inner cores instability
Until It cracks and shines insanity
Now the cracks are becoming all to clear
I use jokes to steer
Their thoughts away from my pain
But how long until I go insane
From being only part of a soul
That is largely as dark as coal