Wash the blood

I lay here in my lonely room
trying to let go of the pain
it sears through my soul and pierces my heart
the pain just will not go away

the tears that fall, i can't control
i burst, i'm trying to let go
the emptiness i feel inside
-- i want to sleep forever, yet...
... i never want to die

i cave into emotions
that broke into my mental barriers a long time ago
i close my eyes and wish for peace
-- the pain will never go

the presence lingers like a tear
that falls slow to the ground
i rinse my hands so full of blood
and all the guilt goes down

(if truth opened my eyes
maybe i'd be able to see
the truth that exists right in front of me)

but still, my eyes are closed so tight
my soul has found no inner light
oh! i must rinse the blood from my guilty hands
for the truth no one would understand

and see, my eyes, the tears, you see
they fall and fall, from under me
i wash the blood that used to lurk inside of me
away from who i'm meant to be