Tears

50,000 tears shed
for a pain that will not mend
this soul so ripped and torn
my body so beat and worn,

Wandering my mind
searching for some reasons to survive
hoping to find one consoled in a last love
but only help comes from above

You have pushed me aside
and locked the door to your life
I can now only cry
and hope my many tears flood unto you
and show you my feelings so true
but this thought is only imaginary
one that won't have a fairy-tale ending

Mend this broken heart that was once so loved
show me a sign of caring
for those painful eyes
once blue and bright
now shed darkness down upon me
turning my blue sky dark as can be
feeling hopeless
what can I do

50,000 tears turn to 50,000 sharp spears
piercing my chest as they rain from my eyes
bleeding into my heart
less beats each time
no one feeling my pain
this is one unique all the same

Spears reverse
twisting upward in a spiral thirst
taking my mind
making me think horrible things
things I tucked away now dance and sing
across my wrists and lips so close
no one to hold them back
or stop the last dose

I lost the key
to the door in front of me
my one last hope
a reason to love again not mope
has dropped me from her everlasting arms
and let me fall
back up she will not let me crawl
fallen into a pool of 50,000 tears
my future is no longer clear...