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A poem from back when i was a depressing child. Ah, fond memories...

You ever felt that you were dying?
The moment you felt that nothings worth crying
Ever felt sanity slip your grip?
To look down and see the wrist that you slit
Did you know the feeling of going numb?
As if you're worth nothing, you're retarded or dumb
Did you ever sleep to live and wake to find yourself dead?
She had, every moment that thoughts processed into her head
She looks up at the darkening sky...
And slowly tears whelm in her eyes
She question God why...
Hold back; fight back, she wants no more
Swallow her tears and lock everything behind a door
Continue her slumber within dead eyes
Watch herself go numb, watch herself die
Trap within a prison and she cannot get out
Her mind full of sorrow, her mind full of doubt
Cutting away her sorrow upon her flesh
Knowing that to die would probably be best
Watch herself rot away
and remember back, once upon a rainy say
That there was a girl that lived and cried
Whose heart continuously bled and finally she died...