A Mind of My Own

The place I call home is just a house
Somewhere I have to spend beginning of my life
Till I move out
The place where I live on the edge of a knife
Where there's no such thing as forgive and forget
Instead of trust I get doubt
I hate my self more and more
I know they hate me and my words may bring pain
But they don't seem to see that my heart's gone sore
The idiocy of it all is so plain
They don't want me, I just exist
Into the wall I want to thrust my fist
What's the point of having this life?
When I could have never existed
And never been such a burden
For every little movement they have to complain
I try not to talk, try my best to refrain
There's no f**king freedom, I'm treated like a slave
I'm holding on so no-one can see the strain
I can't have friends,
There's no such thing as socialising
But that's where my mind bends
Because if there's no happiness indoors, outdoors it will be
I'm not taking your shit anymore; no-one's stopping me
I know you'll keep trying
But I have a mind of my own, a life of my own
I've made my friends my life
I'm an existence of my own, and my heart has now grown
They out there, don't even know
How much they mean to me, how much I love them so
How high I hold their place within my heart and my life
No-one will ever stop me, for their happiness I will always strive
And when my time is up, I'll do that something special
I'll dedicate my last few moment to those that I loved
That loved me too;
My friends.

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