Never the Same

Life can never go back to its ways.
How it use to be.
Perfect,
But perfect is nearly impossible
A dreamed I lived in but that dream I awoke from.
Friendship broken,
A loved lost.

Now friendship is not how it use to,
Of how my depression has sinked lower because of drama.
The love, disappeared with my heart aching.
Yearning for the love I depressingly want or need
Myself changed,
It can never come back.
Mature I've grown,
Jokes I do not smile.
The playfulness at school I see no point in.
The fakeness I act.
The fake smiles I pull within my soul so no one will notice.

My pain,
my sorrow,
My fear.
The fear of being alone,
came true.
Feels like no one will be there when I fall.
No one will be there for me as they use to.

Before a long time ago,
I had people inside of me that I can trust with all my heart.
Now, theres no one.
Just emptiness
Loneliness

Things will never get better or how they use to.
For my mouth is close,
Never to open.
For more drama will come and tears will come.
To my Path of Tears