A mistake I never made

As I learn the awful truth, it hits me in the face,
I cringe at what could happen. Now it's a scary place.

Clueless of the mistakes I've made. I might not be here now,
But nothing happened, and I'm glad. I fought it hard somehow.

Your concern, it made me sick. I didn't want to hear it,
Though as you kept on reading, I began to fear it.

I'm an addict deep inside, Apparently to you,
I wasn't depending on it, I just didn't have a clue.

I was dangerous to those, I didn't want to pain,
Now scared of my mistakes, I feel like I'm insane.

Though you say it's over now, You threw out what I had needed,
Pathetically, I miss it, You think that you've succeeded.

There's got to be another way, to make it all alright,
Another way to help me, get a bit of sleep at night.

A way to make you see, I'm not as sick as I may seem,
I just need a bit of aid, to help my body dream.