Scrutiny

Insecurity
Seeps through the poors
Heads straight to the heart
Never let's go
Drowning in more than enough oxygen
Confusion is an understatement
Being strong for everyone else seems so easy
But being strong for yourself is the impossible part
Lean on me, Lean on me
I'll use all my strength to hold you up
But once you don't need me anymore,
I'll slip away
You will love me
You will hate me
You will lose me
You will forget me
And it doesn't matter anymore
No one cares
They never will
No one understands
They never can
Please don't ask me to fake it
I refuse
See through me
See the truth, the reality, that I'm not okay
No, I'm nowhere near it
And you probably won't accept me for that
Acceptance is overrated
The truth hurts
Which is why tears will soak my pillow tonight
In a world filled with friendship,
I've never felt so alone.