Releasing This Pain

Confusion swirling through my soul
Hot, salty tears leaking out
Used to have my whole life planned
Now everything is full of doubt.

Staring at the cracks in the wall
Remembering a happier place
No matter what I seem to do
Can't put a smile upon my face.

Pretending everything is okay
That I'm not confused inside
Fake laughter straining my soul
When all I want to do is hide.

Recalling memories past
When smiles were not fake
When happiness would fill my time
When my heart and soul did not ache.

Clinging to my teddy bear
Tasting each tear I've cried
What else do I have to do
To release this pain inside?