Wanting

I'm so fed up with all this
the way things are going, the path I'm stuck traveling on
fed up of life being so quiet, still and uneventful
annoyed that I'm alone, again still after all this time
alone while others surround me with their happy times
their happy relationships their spotless lives

would it be so wrong to experience their happiness
maybe its a front, a fake, just something to fool outsiders
maybe within they haven't found the special partner
and inside isn't laughter, love and joy
but yet pain, sorrow and misery covered by an exterior smile

the smile just covering the surface
covering the real feelings below
maybe the feelings are to sad to be revealed
too hurtful to be shared and
too frightening to be contemplated by another

its said there is one person out there for all of us
that one person could be miles away
possibly too far too ever find
they could be right in front of me
standing there unable to catch my attention,
powerless to spark my eyes from being blinded by it all

where ever she is, she must be out there
that one person out there just for me
i bet shes lonely too, i bet shes thinking the same
i bet she gazes to the stars at night
gazing with an un-dieng hope she'll find me
her heart yearning with a wish she wont just walk past me

a wish she wont be to blinded too
a girl who wants the same things
who wouldn't mind just hanging together
one where theres no awkward silence
because any moment together is one worth savoring
conversation that could Never end
because we care about anything the other says

a girl who could come to me with a problem over anyone else
someone who wants the friend part
of the girlfriend boyfriend as much as i
someone whose smile sends so much love
that means so much words just aren't needed

someone who'd always be proud to say
yeah thats my boyfriend
someone who hasn't got a hidden agenda
someone who changes the path i cant escape from
the someone that changes things filling the quiet times
and making me wake with a smile
that special girlfriend