Stubborn

I hate that I'm so difficult
I fear what i don't know.
Why am I so scared to love
I hate losing control.

I hate that I want to end things
when it was my choice for them to start.
I hate that i get so confused
then eventually let things fall apart.

I hate that I can't trust that easy
or open up to someone new.
I fear that it won't work out
because I lose the ones that I do.

Opening up is a challenge for me
so is letting go of the past.
I hate seeing friends go
because I don't move on fast.

Transition is something that scares me
growing up I always come in last.
When everyone goes out on their own
I stay and I am the outcast.

Why do I feel trapped in this town
I wait and wait to be left behind.
Because I don't know what to expect
I have a stubborn and narrow mind.