Here's A Note

Ever made sense of the voices that tell you,
experience is cheap and words cost lives,
and if you're ready to wager your memories,
dare to be different and dreams come easy.
well I'll never be that honest again.
i don't remember the last time i felt safe,
and I'm amazed because,
i did everything in my power to make it this way.
decadence is a beautiful sin,
while the air around me is growing thin,
they say I'm forgetting to breathe again.
the depth in my lungs is collecting dust.
I'm hoping to prove myself wrong in the end.
so maybe I'll keep these walls from shaking,
and all the colours will stop me from shading,
every positive thought to grey,
while I think about this in a different light.
I'll stop a second and lay here quietly,
because i don't think anybody's really listening,
and I'm sure they're all uninterested but,
you're my favourite; I'm just not sure i know it yet.
if it seems like I'm running backed up to a wall,
i never meant it to be like that,
perhaps you're ready to change the world,
I'm just a girl with big ideas,
so just while I'm tangled and caught between,
the things that i want and what i don't need,
and I'm learning that sometimes, only sometimes,
the heart should follow the mind,
then again the heart should tell the mind to stay at home,
to stop interfering and leave me alone,
because I've got that little feeling again,
like everything will be alright,
even with that lonely thought tapping on my door,
you fix your right hand on my shoulder,
and I'll keep one foot on the ground.
when time has its way and every thing's settled,
I'll be right here waiting for you.