Reason to die

by Jenie   May 30, 2007


Why cant i stop this
my blade-my only friend
i want to quit the habit
it needs to end!

it takes over my life
only harm it brings
damn this knife
and sensation that stings

i want to move on
and learn to cope on my own
the blade makes me so upset
leaving me all alone

i cry when i use it
i want to scream, F**K NO!
i just cant
and the blood goes to show

i hate the scars
and behind my back,what people say
i damn this blade to hell
i just want it to go away!

the blood gives me a guilt trip
so like always, i regret what i did
3 years later- i still cover it up
the sleeves kept them hid

i always let my boyfriend down
i promised to do it no more
but then he looks at my arm
1 slice..2 slice..3 slice..4

my mama and dad so disappointed
shamed of what i do
"stop this nonsense
W.T.F is the matter with you!?"

i need to learn to stop
because i am living a lie
i cant let it rule my life
i don't it to be the reason i die

5.30.7

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  • 16 years ago

    by new person

    I like it alot it gives really good meaning to it for the people in the world it tells them what it really does to you becuz its happen to me and it rect my life tell someone came and helped me. now im allmost better but good job 5/5

  • 16 years ago

    by ibelievedhim

    I think the last line should say i don't want it to be the reason i die, but other than that i think that it is really good. I used to cut too, but i don't anymore. I could never describe it the way you did. Good job, 5/5

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