Confusing

Sometimes i don't know
what to believe
i don't know if i should get down
on my knees and pray
pray to a man with all my faith

but how do i pray to a man
i don't believe in
i really want to
but it seems like i cant

you see
when i pray i feel disrespectful
praying to another's faith i don't
believe in
but i am trying not to go into the deep end

there was many times in my life
when i prayed to this man
i know him by
i am

and when i did
and asked for help
it seemed he was not there
to get me out

but then again
i don't know
i don't know which path
to go

this to me is really confusing
it does not feel
real amusing
I'm....I'm....confused