A smile to finally come

I would spend most nights looking out my window
Just letting the tears leak out faster than my eyes could handle
I had been holding them in since the day had started
My love was dying like a shuttering blown out candle

I would cradle my knees to my chest and slowly rock back and forth
Keeping the rhythm up to forget the day’s daily pain
To close your eyes to the world again and again
Even to a decent person could make you insane

To sigh endless is not what I had dreamed of
It was given to me has a dreaded plight
I was its respectful owner the only one who took it in
This was how it repaid me life as a never ending fight?

Did I do so wrong when I tried to help
But who exactly got the good in this
Love, hope, and happy dreams?
To me it looks like destiny went amiss

I would wish upon a star each day they show
Hoping for luck hoping for a hand
I promise to be worth of it I really will
I’ll suck it up and take it like a man

As I looked through my clear window
Just staring at the starry stars of night
I came to realize that the little plight
Came in because I had let it into my life

I stood up clear and tall with a renewed smile on my face
It was time to kick out this annoying bug
I hoped into bed knowing tomorrow would be alright
I closed my eyes tight realizing that tonight I would actually sleep snug