Haunting Lullaby ((edited))

Sinking lower into this numbness
i don't think i can clean these stains
your hands outstretched but i look away
i don't want to see you in my chains

and i don't understand whats going on
i don't know who i am
you offer me the answers
but i think I'm too scared to give a damn

its getting harder to hold up my mask
getting harder to smile
i see the tears banging against my eyes
a forceful anguish so hostile

i look up to see the sky
but all i see is black
i try to run away
but I'm immovably held back

So i reach for your arm
but my hand just drifts through
i notice I'm alone
your friendship wasn't true

and you point me to his direction
but I'm scared to reach out
he seems to be sincere
but his eyes seem too without

But the hope it still lingers
as i die inside
I'm hoping if i don't know
maybe the pain will subside

one day ill understand this
one day before i die
until then ill stay alone here
with your haunting lullaby