First Kiss

*****this isn't really a POEM poem, it's just kind of a story or whatever.. it's just what i felt at the moment.. i wrote it in like 5 minutes : )*****

Sometimes when I'm all alone
I lay on my bed
And close my eyes
And lay still.
Oh so still.
And they start coming.
The memories, they start drifting back.
All the memories.
The good. The bad.
And if I lay still,
Oh so still,
I can almost go back.
Go back to that one time,
And see what I saw.
And hear what I heard.
And feel what I felt.
It's almost like I never left.
It's almost like I can still feel the cold wind on my face,
And the cold air nipping at my nose, my cheeks.
And my hands. My hands are so cold.
And then I feel the warmth on them.
And now my small, cold hands are in your bigger, warmer ones.
And at once I feel better.
Warmer, safer, prettier...
Better.
You take my hands in yours
And pull me into your arms.
My head is pressed up against your chest.
And I hear it.
I hear your heartbeat.
Not only with my ears.
But I feel it somewhere inside me.
And I feel so close to you..
Closer than I've ever felt to anyone in my life.
I look up into your eyes.
Even in the dark, I can see them sparkle.
So green.
Like marbles.
Your eyes -- they look like green marbles, did you know that?
...There's that cold wind again.
It moves the fur on the hood of my jacket.
The fur tickles my forehead, my cheeks.
Your face is coming close to mine..
Closer.
And closer.
I can feel your breath on my face now.
I know we're hidden.
My hood is hiding us from the rest of the people...the rest of the world.
And I know that this moment is ours.
Just yours and mine.
Nobody else in the world matters.
No one.
Not now.
Not at this moment.
And just like that -- it happens.
I feel the warmth of your lips on mine.
My lips are so cold.
But yours -- yours warm them up.
How do your lips always stay so warm?
I feel my knees buckle.
And my head start to spin.
It's just like in the movies.
Exactly like in the movies.
It's magical.
It's perfect.
I open my eyes...
...It's gone.
The cold, the wind, the hood..
..You.
It's all gone.
And I'm back in my room.
On my bed.
Alone.
You're not here anymore.
But it's okay.
I smile to myself.
It's okay because I know it was real.
It DID happen.
And it was special.
It was just yours and mine.
It was my first kiss.
And I'll never forget it.
Even though things are different now,
I'll never forget it.
And I'll never forget you.
Ever.
I swear.

With All My Love...

I can't believe it's been a whole year.. feels like it happened yesterday.